RIOTS NOT FUCKING DIETS.
RIOTS. NOT DIETS.
I don’t give a fucking fuck that my BMI says I’m overweight or you think its better for MY health to lose weight BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK DO DIETS EVEN EXIST? I have not once in my life seen or heard of an advertisement for a diet talking about how much happier the person is now that they are active and healthy (because obviously they can’t be active until they lose that 20 or 50 or 100 pounds DUH) or how they love their strong thighs or how much more joyful their life is. Its all OH LOOK AT THIS FUCKING NUMBER THAT MATTERED SO MUCH TO ME THAT I HAD TO MAKE IT SMALLER. And what happens should said person gain back any of that weight. Does 10 pounds make or break happiness? What about 30? What about 80? What happens then? Do you have a happiness vs. weight threshold? It hurts me so deep inside to think that its so totally normal for someone to depend on numbers on a scale to tell them how to feel. Why. Just… why.
And god fucking dammit fuck clothes. Seriously fuck stores whose biggest size barely fits the average human because you know what? If clothes don’t fit me its THE CLOTHING DESIGNER’S FAULT. I only wear clothes because sometimes its cold and I am legally required to and everyone looks better naked clothing sizes are useless labels we place on our bodies to allow someone to label us acceptable.
I will not give in to a culture that tells me my thighs jiggle too much. my stomach is too paunchy. my boobs are too big. my skin is not clear enough. my arms are too flabby. my scars are too obvious. i need to cover up my body because it is so wrong for existing the way that it does.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE I AM BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU. ARE. FUCKING. BEAUTIFUL. WE DON’T NEED LABELS OR NUMBERS OR COLORS OR WIDTHS OR TAGS FOR OUR BEAUTY.
I’m not sorry. I will never be sorry. I will never ever be sorry for loving myself and wanting others to do the same. Never.
(this is so incoherent and ranty but i have never been more angry at this culture and the diet ridden world and how acceptable it is for a woman or any person’s self esteem to be dependent on their appearance. and most of all how i feel like i am surrounded by people who think i’m just plain wrong because i don’t know why i just am.)
